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My Lady has already shared her experience of our first “dungeon party” – there’s not much more for me to add, considering I only participated for a few minutes at most. It was my first time being caned, though, which was pretty intense.

It was really fun being at the party; ML and I had a great time. I must admit, though, that at first I felt really out of place there. I don’t have a lot of experience with “impact play” and most of the people there were pretty well versed in the scene… at the very least, they knew the names of all the implements.

I was enjoying watching the scenes at the party, but I was also starting to have feelings of inadequacy – I felt that I wasn’t able to take as much punishment as I should. The fact that I was only able to hang in there for a few short moments while others stayed in scenes for twenty minutes or more fed into these fears even more.

This has always been a big problem of mine: comparing myself to others even when there is no need to, and feeling as though I don’t measure up. I end up worrying about unimportant things and psyching myself out. Because, when it comes down to it, does it really matter if someone else can take a spanking for longer that I can?

I finally decided to think positively about my experience: I tried something new, something that ML really enjoyed, and I did my best to serve her. I was proud of myself for what I was able to do.

Then I saw the pics of my ass… and I realized that I actually did take a good beating. 🙂

Even though it was a small amount of time, apparently it was really intense – that pic of my reddened ass was pretty impressive! And those marks are still hanging around days after ML used the cane on me. Hell, even just being able to say “My Lady caned me” is something to be proud of, in my opinion!

It ended up being a great experience: ML really enjoyed the lasting marks she made, and I was able to feel the lingering soreness in my ass… which helped me remember and actually turned me on. I’m actually excited to try it again, to see if I can push myself just a little bit farther… maybe give My Lady a chance to give me a few more “memories” to enjoy.

Wow! What an awesome weekend!! If you’d have asked me 5 years ago if I thought we would be doing what we’re doing right now I would have called you fucking crazy… actually even 3 years ago!! Cagedmonkey and I had a chance to get to our local munch again this past weekend and it was so much fun. We always love getting there to see friends and just laugh and enjoy some time with other people who we feel comfortable being ourselves with. We met this really great couple a month or so ago when we were still pretty new to going to the munch and they happen to have private dungeon. They’ve invited us over before but we just haven’t had a chance to make it. Well, on Saturday, they invited us and some other people from the munch over to their place for a kind of little after party. It really was just a continuation of the munch, except for the fact that there was a bit more going on than what could ever happen in a public restaurant! Hehe I know we mentioned some of this in our last podcast so you get the picture. I do want to say that even though people might think if you go to a private dungeon party or get invited over their house it’s going to be some kind of crazy sex party – it’s really not! I’m sure that may happen but I’m going to guess most of the time it’s just certain types of play. It was so much fun hanging out and some of the time I was kind of reminded of high school when you’d go hang out at in a friend’s basement sneaking beer!

Let me back up a bit though before I go on with the dungeon party. Earlier in the day grandma had come to get the kids for the night so cagedmonkey and I had the entire afternoon to spend time together. You know that meant we got in some good intense playtime. 🙂 I decided to take advantage of the time we had and I locked cagedmonkey in our steel doggy style Stockade. This time I actually used the locking collar attachment since I’d recently lined the collar with a thin layer of neoprene foam.

I really wanted him bound well and unable to move so I could try our a few of my paddles and things on him. He was so trusting and wonderful to take everything I had to give him. And trust me I gave it to him hard and non-stop for almost an hour. I used a few different paddles and the flogger and I also spent some time tickling him while he was locked up and immobile. It was so fun to watch him squirm! I took a picture in the beginning when his sexy butt was nice and red and you could just start to see the marks.

I was also giving his balls a little paddling as well, during it all. I do wish I would have gotten a picture at the end. I had decided to push him harder and in fact I decided to push him past harder to too hard. I wanted to trust that he would use his safeword and so I beat him extremely hard to see where it was that he would, in fact, ask me to stop. I really wanted to get him to his ultimate breaking point. My man took a hell of a lot of me that day… And then we ended up at the dungeon party where, well, he got beat more! At the end of our daytime session I did have to show him just how dripping wet my pussy was and have him clean it up afterwards.

The dungeon party was a ton of fun. There were about 6 couples there total but I to believe we were the only couple with a male submissive. It was all good and we got to see some others using the equipment and the different toys available and some even shared and gave us all a chance to spank their sub. That was fun! 🙂

When it was our turn, I had cagedmonkey get on the spanking bench so I could try out a few of their toys. They had floggers of many styles, paddles, whips, canes, you name it and I also brought my new wooden paddle that my friend got for me. Since I’d already worked hubby over earlier I was really just interested in trying a couple things. I was able to use a cane and then I ended his night with an extremely hard swat with my wooden paddle. 

I will say, they left some pretty spectacular marks on his ass… That stayed for days. I personally think they looked so incredibly awesome the next day…

The lines are from the cane and the big red mark there on his left cheek is from the paddle. I will say that even two days later those marks remained. It truly was a spectacular feeling letting that out and using those different things on him. It felt exhilarating! 

I told hubby next time I need to get him up on their cross… It’s a good thing we already got invited to the next party! 🙂

A little bit of a late Christmas post but we do hope that you all had a fantastic Christmas. We had a great time seeing family on Christmas Eve and enjoying a yummy dinner and gifts. Then we spent Christmas day at home as a family in jammies all day playing with new toys and, yesterday, our little Christmas-time was extended when we dropped the kids off to grandma’s so we could go out with a friend.

I think the kids were happy with all their new toys and hubby and I got things for each other that are more for both of us so that’s awesome. I did end up getting an amazing kinky gift too from our friend. Such an incredible, handcrafted piece and I am thoroughly impressed with it and so grateful to have been given this extremely thoughtful gift. I just love it so much and… It’s BLUE (and kind of silver looking)!!!

I completely love it and I can not wait to try it out. The handle is so perfect and it’s curved just right and fits in my hand. The wood is exquisite and so smooth. I fondled that thing all night and didn’t feel a single flaw. Not a bump or rough spot anywhere on it. It really is an amazing piece of work. I would have loved to try it out last night but just didn’t have the right opportunity. 🙂 

We love that we have gotten to share another year with you. Again, we hope you all had an awesome Christmas and hope you have a fantastic New Year!! 

The other day our kids were driving me absolutely insane, misbehaving, talking back, arguing with me and each other constantly, etc. It was actually over the course of a couple days which, I’m sure, anyone with kids (especially on the spectrum) would know the time around a full moon or new moon can get very frustrating when it comes to behavior. Needless to say I was worn down and tired and pretty sick of being called “mean mom” because I felt like I was constantly redirecting or punishing them.

Cagedmonkey is such an amazing hubby and noticed how tired and mentally worn out and frustrated I was with their behavior. He offered to help with dinner one night and he then offered himself to me. Since you can’t go around beating your children and using the paddle on them, he offered to give himself to me to use the paddle on and take all my frustration out on. I haven’t actually had a real opportunity to spank him good recently so it really got me going and I decided, that night I would get my anger and frustration out on his deliciously sexy ass. 

Just to make things hotter I decided to tie him up similar to the way we had seen in a bondage photo recently. It’s basically a “face down, ass up” position that he cannot get out of. It was extremely hot seeing him tied up that way and completely unable to move. I used the underbed restraints and tied his wrists to his ankles. Not in a “hog tie” because I specifically needed his ass up and ready to take a beating and anything else I wanted to give it. 

It really helped having his face down into the mattress like that when he started to get loud at times. I just got up on the mattress and would shove his face into it telling him to be quite so no one heard him. He really was yelping and howling a bit and making some noise. We certainly didn’t want to wake the kids or alert any of the neighbors. 🙂

It seriously felt so incredibly good to spank him. I actually felt such an amazing release as I spanked him over and over, harder and harder. Each set of swats with my fantastic paddle, I could feel myself let go more and more. I usually am kinda reserved when spanking him because I don’t want to hurt him. This time, I just really let him have it much more than I ever have and good Lord did it really feel good. The release of stress, the lift off my chest. It truly was such a gift for him to say “you can have me and I will take whatever you need to give out.” I beat his ass to a beautiful shade of red.

I love how you can totally see the marks the edges of the paddle make on his ass. While I was spanking him and telling him I knew he liked me doing it (because he was hard as hell!). I teased him and mindfucked him, telling him how easy it would be in that position to make him my bitch. To put on my strap-on and just fuck his ass hard while he was face down in the mattress. I got out one of the anal prostate toys and barely lubed it and stuck it in his ass. His ass is so slutty for me that it just took it right in, hungry for it. I told him he had a slutty ass for me and it only made his cock that much harder. 

After such an amazing night, we both thought I’d have some serious Dom drop. We did everything we could to prevent it and I think we did a good job. I was in such a happy fantastic mood the next day. I just kept remembering how terrific it felt to let loose. I know I could have let go more and beat him harder or longer but just that bit that I was able to felt so incredible and my pussy was so wet. I really look forward to another night like that!

Last night, ML and I got our first chance to try out the more “interesting” features of our new bedroom set. The fact that it’s not fully put together yet didn’t stop us – the bed is not ready to support our mattress yet, but at least the frame is up. My Lady used this frame to string me up and have her way with my defenseless body.

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The upper supports of the bed are pretty strong – they held up well when I pulled against them. They obviously won’t be strong enough to fully support my weight for true suspension bondage, but they will definitely be useful for ML to restrain me in many different ways.
Last night, ML cuffed my hands above my head and began rubbing her hands all over my naked body. I could feel her energy growing quickly as she touched y skin, sending shivers all over my body. She lightly tickled me, and I could only stand there and squirm. I could tell ML was very excited; she was like a kid with a new toy, she couldn’t decide how to play with me next!

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ML pulled my legs back a little bit, forcing me to stick my butt out in order to maintain my balance. She then started rubbing her hands over my ass, squeezing it as she whispered in my ear how much she loved my ass. Then she swatted my ass, giving me a good hard spanking and making my ass sting.

ML spanked me pretty hard; it had been a while since she really laid into me, and I could tell she had some “urges” she needed to address. 🙂 I’m sure she would have hit me harder if she had her paddle at the ready, but my ass was still very red and tender by the time she was done with me.

(Sorry, no good pictures of my reddened ass cheeks… We still need to get a lamp for our bedroom)

After giving me my good hard spanking, ML decided to “reward” me with some hardcore cock teasing. She kneeled in front of me as she stroked my cock, looking deep into my eyes as she edged me over and over. I couldn’t help but try to thrust into her hand, searching for any stimulation that would give me a dearly needed orgasm.

Sensing that I was wanting more stimulation, My Lady fetched her wand and began using it on me in conjunction with her stroking. Soon I was moaning and shaking, softly begging ML for… I’m not quite sure if I wanted to cum or wanted her to stop. Either one would have been good, but she did neither. She continued teasing me, pushing me closer and closer to orgasm with each edge.

Finally, ML pushed me just about as close a she could without giving me a true full orgasm. She stroked me to the perfect moment, until one more stroke would drive me over the edge, and stopped… but she let the wand continue to work its magic on my tortured cock for just a moment longer.. Just as my cock began to throb, she removed the wand. I moaned in incredible frustration as my cock spasmed, bobbing in mid air as it made its futile attempt at cumming.

After a few seconds, ML grabbed my cock at the base and slowly squeezed up to the tip, pulling all of the ruined-orgasm cum out of me. She even gave me a little bit more of the wand treatment, causing me to wiggle and squirm in post-ruined-orgasm torment. My Lady was so turned on by having me so helpless and having such control over me that she laid back and treated herself to a wand-assisted orgasm while I was forced to watch from my restrained position. It was incredibly frustrating, but also incredibly sexy.

It was great to see that our new bed is going to fit our “specialized needs.” Once we get the mattress up on the bed frame, it will be exciting to see what types of fun we can have!

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ML and I have been enjoying my days off during the week. Not having the kids around has allowed us to have some fun that is edgier than what we can normally do (even with the kids sleeping). This last day off, ML took the opportunity to give me some time locked in the Bitch Tamer stockade.

I got into position, and ML cuffed and locked my wrists and ankles to the steel frame. Then she took a belt and used it to strap my hips down tight to the waist pad so that I couldn’t move at all. It was very exhilarating to have no control over what My Lady could do to me, no way to move to avoid (or get more of) any sensations ML wanted me to feel.

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ML began by getting her paddle from the dresser and giving me a good spanking. She started off with some semi-gentle swats, but soon her excitement drove her to spank me harder. The paddle was hitting me with a loud smack, and I felt the sting beginning to build. Each swat hurt just a little more than the last, and I was soon wishing that I could move even just the littlest bit to react to the pain. The waist pad and belt held fast, holding me still and giving ML a nice easy target to aim for.

Only after I began to yelp after each swat did ML finally show me some mercy. I could feel the heat from my nicely reddened ass as she walked around me, dragging her fingers across my back and making me shiver. ML reached into our “bondage bin” and took out some rope and walked around to the back of the stockade. I had only a moment to wonder what she was doing, then I felt her hands on my cock and balls. She wrapped the rope around the base of my balls and cock, looped it around the tip of my cock just under the head, and then pulled the rope up my back and tied it to the belt strapped across my back. This pulled my cock backwards between my legs, providing a little extra ache to my already frustrated and desperate cock.

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Once she had me tied up, ML sat on the edge of the bed, just barely within reach of my face. She spread her legs, showing me her extremely wet pussy. I instinctively tried to lunge forward, but restrained as I was, I could barely move. The only thing I succeeded in doing was causing the rope to tug on my cock and balls. ML looked down at me with a knowing smile. “Come on,” she said, giving her pussy a pat, obviously instructing me to try my best to lick her.

I strained as hard as I could, pulling my cock backwards even farther in the process. I was just barely able to reach her pussy, licking her clit with the tip of my tongue. I could tell ML was enjoying teasing me in this way because I could feel her pussy pulsing from just this little amount of contact I was able to manage. After a minute or two, ML leaned back, moving her pussy just out of range. She rubbed her clit, bringing herself to orgasm just inches away from my face, forcing me to watch every moment of her orgasm.

When ML had satisfied herself, she turned her attention back to torturing me. She untied the rope and began to stroke my cock, which was already dripping with precum. She stroked me hard and fast, and I tried with all of my might to thrust down towards her. It was God awful frustrating to not be able to thrust into her hand; after two and a half months without an orgasm, I needed a good hard fast cum. Not being able to move, I was completely depending on ML to deliver that badly needed orgasm… I knew deep down, however, that it wouldn’t likely be the case.

ML continued stroking me, taking me right to the edge of orgasm… and she continued stroking me until juuuuuuuust before my cock began to spasm. She let go at the perfect moment, before my orgasm started but too late for it to stop. I groaned and my body shuddered as I suffered through an intense ruined orgasm, trying to move even an inch just to get some sort of touch to make the orgasm a little more pleasurable. But the cum just poured out of me with no orgasm whatsoever.

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ML still wasn’t done with me; she was going to get her money’s worth with her monkey locked up. When my cock was finished with its ruined cum, she began to stroke me again. This time I was even more desperate to thrust into her hand, because now I knew what was coming… ML was going to ruin me again. I couldn’t thrust towards her, I couldn’t shy away… I was just there, subject to the ruined orgasm that I knew was only seconds away.

The second ruined one was worse. Once ML realized that I knew it was coming, she dragged it out even longer; she slowed her strokes, pushing me right up to the edge and holding me there for a few moments before slowly pushing me enough to just barely start my orgasm. Then she gently released my cock from her grip; the absence of touch was excruciating! I tried as hard as I could to thrust anywhere, rub my cock against anything… all I could manage was to shake the stockade a little bit. When my cock began to throb, I hung my head in defeat, and I had no choice but to watch as the cum dribbled out of my cock once again.

I think ML was interested in playing more, but unfortunately “real life problems” began to kick in – my elbow began to feel stiff and painful. It’s going to be so great when I don’t have to worry about my elbow hurting during extended bondage sessions! Although, maybe it was a blessing… who knows how many more ruined orgasms I would have had to endure before ML was through with me!

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Cagedmonkey and I finally had a day together, alone in the house all day. Since mid January, our daughter has gone back to school full days which means there should be so much time during the day for play. It just so happens that this area we live in is very “snow day” happy. Every time we’ve had a day come up where cagedmonkey was going to be home some crazy weather anomaly would happen and they would cancel school. It was extremely nice to finally get a day to spend together doing whatever we wanted.

The very first thing I made him do was get the lotion and give me a leg and foot massage right after the kids left on the bus. It was so nice to sit back and get pampered by my subby hubby. Something as easy as a little leg rub felt so good and made me feel so special. After that I instructed him to get the rope from our toy bin and I proceeded to tie him up in a kneeling hog tie rope thing. I’m by no means perfect with my rope skills but I did the best I could and he was bound pretty securely.

While kneeling there, bound, I stroked his cock and teased and edged him. Over and over stroking as he whimpered. Pinching his nipples asking him if he was my good boy? Asking if he was my slutty boy? Asking if he was so horny he would humiliate himself by humping my hand? I made him kneel there and tell me “yes, ma’am, I’m your horny slutty good boy” while he rocked back and forth humping my hand. Hehe it turns me on right now thinking about it.

I took control, once again, of what kind of stroking his cock was going to get. I edged him a couple more times and well, had myself going so much that I accidentally edged him one stroke too much and out dribbled a little cum. It wasn’t a full on ruined orgasm, there really was no twitching or anything, but it was enough that a few drips slowly fell to the floor below.

Of course we couldn’t have an un-punished ruined orgasm so I made him hobble his way over on his knees to the side of the couch, he laid across it and I used my paddle to spank a nice red into his ass cheeks. Since his hands were so nicely tied behind his back, I straddled his back and used his fingers on my wet pussy while spanking him. I was so fucking turned on by the noises he was making I came good and hard on his hands and back and squirted a little puddle onto him as well. It was quite a hot moment. I love the sounds he makes when I spank him, it just soaks my pussy!

So that was the way our morning started the other day. We had a few things to go and do during the day so we did pick up again later in the afternoon… You’ll have to wait to hear about that from Cagedmonkey. 🙂

I have been very stressed out with all of this moving stuff and trying to pack while still taking care of the kids and the house and functioning in this living space. Not to mention the kid with the medical issues having bigger issues this past week. Then the “normal” kid is having behavior issues, likely because of the move. I have a lot on me and my patience wears thin very quickly these days.

Yesterday, by the afternoon, I had lost all patience and was getting more and more irritable with things. As I said, the medical stuff was crazy and I just started to lose it. Cagedmonkey heard me starting to get very frustrated while he was trying to sleep in the bedroom and asked if I needed him to wake up. Normally, I would say no but I’m trying to change my “I don’t need help” way about myself and actually admit that there are times I need help. So I told him yes, I did want him to get up, even if it was just to take on some of the craziness with the kids.

Just before coming out of the bedroom, I was texting him telling him how frustrated I was and he texted me back and said, “Would you like to come here and take some of that out on my butt before I get up?”

Really?!?!

I love how he knows just what I need! I didn’t even text back, I ran down the hallway with a big smile on my face, went in the bedroom and spanked his sexy little ass for each of my frustrations.

My subby hubby is so amazing and this whole D/s and FLM thing is great because I get to take back my power and control with the help of my wonderful hubby when I feel like it’s been stripped away by the craziness of everyday life.

My Lady hasn’t been feeling very well lately; she has been dealing with strong body aches and generalized overall pain from time to time. I wish I could do something to help her out and relieve her pain, but there’s not much I can do other than being supportive and loving whenever I can.
 
Our sexy fun play time has suffered greatly over the past few weeks because of this. It may seem superficial, but ML and I both agree that sexual attraction and physical intimacy is a very important part of our relationship. I can tell ML is getting worried that her physical issues are drawing energy away from our sex life. She doesn’t REALLY need to worry about that stuff – we can definite adjust to this situation, as we’ve been through much worse already – but it’s nice when I can help ease her fears when possible (and get her a little turned at the same time).
 
We were sitting on the couch tonight watching some TV before I had to leave for work, ML was resting her hand on my hip as I was laying on my side next to her. With the sole purpose of making her smile, I pulled the waistband of my shorts down to show her my naked ass. She giggled and squeezed my butt and gave them a soft slap with her palm. Her touch felt so nice on my naked skin, and a moment later I was up on my knees next to her on the couch, bent over the arm with my naked ass pointed in her direction. As her hands caressed my ass cheeks, I heard her make what would be best described as a half laugh/half moan, a sound that she often makes when she is surprised by just how turned on she is getting. It was music to my ears.
 
For the next few minutes, My Lady smacked my ass until I whimpered and tickled my balls until I couldn’t help but squirm. She gently stroked the base of my cock until I filled up my cage, and she teased the sensitive area between my balls and asshole until I was moaning into the couch cushions. “It’s so cute,” she said as she toyed with me, “I love to watch your ass twitch.” I couldn’t hold still as she brushed her fingers over my exposed skin, and she spanked me hard enough to make me yelp.

It eventually was time for me to get ready for work, but it felt really great to get those juices flowing between us again. It was also wonderful to see My Lady enjoying making my cage tight around my throbbing cock.

Last night cagedmonkey and I had a little alone, adult time together. I would get into describing it but I’ll leave that to him since it focuses on me dominating him for the most part. It’s probably better that you experience that part from the receiver.

As for me, while I enjoyed last night’s acute intensity very much, I’m experiencing what I would consider one of my most severe episodes of Domme Drop (regarding length). I’ve talked about this before in previous posts and even described it here. It really is no fun. I actually have been doing very well with things and haven’t had too many episodes of drop recently and when I anticipated one I would use my anxiety meds (as decided with the help of a doctor) to combat the effects just prior to them happening. Also, since you know me and I think communication is huge, hubby and I talk about it and he helps greatly during a drop.

I really had no thoughts, with the very short time that we got to spend together, that I would even have any drop. I found out very quickly after cagedmonkey went to work that the drop, no matter how much time is spent during an intense scene, can and will happen.

The part that makes a drop hard for me is the roller coaster feeling. I’ll be fine one minute and the next my eyes well up with tears or I’m feeling anxious. I realized a lot of the feelings last night were questions, worries if you will, about cagedmonkey’s experience. I think the time drop hits me the most is when we have an intense scene and right after that hubby has to go to work. Then he gets home at 7am and it’s breakfast time for the kids and he’s gotta get to bed. There is no time to talk about the events that took place, no time to hear that he liked or disliked something, no “thank you ma’am” for dominating me, for spanking my ass or any of that. We just don’t get that time together to give me the feedback I apparently desperately need.

That’s what it is, I realized, during the scene I’m not getting much feedback because he is enduring what I’m dishing out (spanking, assplay, teasing, breath play etc) and it’s what I need afterwards. I need to know how he feels about what happened. I need to know that it was ok, that he is ok and they I don’t need to feel guilty. When it’s a rush after to get him off to work and we don’t even discuss the scene – like it didn’t happen – I begin to worry. Did he like it? Did it feel good? Was it hot for him? Did he like feeling me take what I wanted from him? Did he like me using his body to do as I please? The questions race through my head causing the ripples of anxiety. The anxiety causes my emotional down. The feelings of sadness, worry and probably even some shame need to be squashed out by the communication and feedback after a scene. It’s like I have said before even a Domme can need “aftercare.”

I wonder, do other Dommes or Tops who experience drop feel that the feedback helps them?