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If you all can peel yourselves away from my big sexy boobies for just one minute lol I thought I would write ๐Ÿ™‚

First of all I absolutely hate packing and moving. Our house looks like a tornado came through it because I have to sacrifice cleaning to pack or packing to clean. Trying to live in a house with two young kids while also trying to pack it up is like a dog chasing it’s tail.

Anyway, there is a good part to all of this moving stuff. We’ve decided to go through stuff and throw out a lot of old crap from childhood because what’s the use of keeping stuff in boxes? We are done with holding on to the past with material things. (Bear with me there is a sexy part to this post haha) There are, however, some things we’ve come across from our more recent past that we are keeping. We found pictures, letters and even some sex coupons that I sent to cagedmonkey when we first got together. It made us realize that this kinky side of us was always here inside us. Not that we had explored it much back then because we know it wasn’t the right time but it was there. I had made him coupons that said “a night of teasing while restrained” and other stuff like that. It was so awesome to find those things to remind us that, even almost 15 years ago, we were meant to be together. We also found our wedding pictures and our unity candle (which we need for January!) and, of course, I was getting all emotional remembering how much I love this man.

I guess getting all emotional was a good thing for cagedmonkey because I also got very horny! Haha that night we decided to unwind with a few drinks and just have a nice relaxing sexy night. Well let’s just say cagedmonkey got more than he bargained for hehe. I had unlocked him for the long weekend so that I could play with him and use him however and whenever I wanted. So that night as we were refilling our drinks in the kitchen hubby started rubbing himself against my ass and slid his hands around me to hold and squeeze my boobs. He was behind me naked and started simulating fucking me from behind. I reached back, slid my panties down in back and positioned his cock at my incredibly horny pussy and pushed back onto him. He gasped and moaned from being slid into my hot tight pussy which he’d been denied from for days. I told him, “fuck me” and he put one hand on my shoulder, bent me over the counter and started fucking me nice and hard. He was going to cum so he started to slow and I wasn’t having any of that. I told him, “No! Don’t stop!” He said, “I have to unless you want me to cum.” I reached back and grabbed his hip and pulled him into me. He was hesitating, worried he’d cum without permission, I’m sure. I started pushing back onto him fucking myself with his huge hard cock and gave him the instruction to “fuck me hard and cum deep in my pussy and fill me up.” That’s exactly what he did and damn did it feel so fucking good. It actually left my pussy quivering and aching for more. Mmmmm so nice!

I did realize this morning that it has been quite a few days that I have gone without an orgasm. How is that possible? Actually with all the stress of moving and being so busy with regular everyday life and packing on top of that… I haven’t felt all that horny for an orgasm. I do hope that once we move I’m going to get my horny level back to where my pussy is a dripping wet horny mess everyday.

Thanks to the moving preparations and also my current coming-down-with-a-cold-ness, there hasn’t been all that much horny play between My Lady and me during the past week. I mean, sure, I wake up with my cock pressing hard against the bars of my cage, but I haven’t had that “I’ll run through a concrete wall to fuck you” feeling for a couple days now. I guess that’s what getting sick will do to you. Understandably, I’m just not feeling the horniness right now.

But then again, I am. The desire for my wife certainly is there, no doubt about it. In fact, even with my sinuses all stuffy and gross, I still feel a sexual connection with ML that is stronger than even before we started chastity play. We are still touching and squeezing each other whenever we can (when the eyes of children are more upon us), and when we cuddle together we both have the inescapable urge to grind together. I still feel the electricity coming off of her skin when I touch her, and I still have to take a moment and recollect my thoughts when I see that sexy ass of hers.

Could it be that the intensity of my sexual desire has been recalibrated? It seems as though even when I’m at my lowest horny point – sick, distracted, preoccupied – things are still more intense than they ever were before we started this adventure. And now when things get really intense, it’s completely off the charts crazy!

Yup… I could get used to living like this. ๐Ÿ™‚

Wow as if all the craziness of people dying and moving hasn’t put a damper on the playtime, now cagedmonkey is sick! Ugh! He’s been sleeping or working the last few days and is just feeling blah. Still locked in his caged and still horny but still sick. It’s really not all that sexy to be kissing and sniffing and stuff lol ๐Ÿ™‚

Ah well, things will settle back down soon and we will be back to it. In the mean time, how can I entertain you? Haha

Will my big boobies be good?

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Wow, what a fucked up day and a half it’s been. In less than 24 hours I lost my brother. He was rushed to the ER yesterday morning around 6 or so AM after being found on the floor at his home unable to move or speak. He ended up in ICU on a ventilator, died and was revived twice and finally at about 1am this morning he passed away. He was a young guy (just turned 50 this year) and has left his wife and 2 young daughter’s.

I’m having a very tough time and I’m dealing with the “roller coaster” emotions thing. You know, where you are fine one minute and the next you’re crying. This is hitting me so very hard. It seems this year is a year of grieving for me. In the last 6 months I have suddenly &/or unexpectedly lost my Father, one of my favorite Aunts (dad’s sister) and now my Brother.

Cagedmonkey has been so supportive and holds me and hugs me when I need it. Comforts me and is just there for whatever I need him for. I could not ask for a better man or husband to be my partner. He has helped lift my spirit and ease my anger toward the world over this. I may be in charge in this relationship but I am very loved and well cared for.

I’m tired and need to find my motivation again to continue packing this house so we can move in a few weeks. We would also like to have a garage sale… I hope we’re able to pull this together.

No no no, I didn’t mean it THAT way! Still 100% straight here. Not that there’s anything wrong with people who are into different things, I just don’t want there to be any confusion.

(Ok, maybe I wanted a little confusion so you’d click on the link, but now that you’re here…)

What I mean to say is this: a good portion of guys who get deep into chastity start to say things like “I prefer to be locked than unlocked.” I can understand this feeling totally. I feel wonderful when I’m locked and controlled by My Lady. The cage is comfortable and has become part of my life now. It’s natural to me. In fact, the times (few and far between) than I’ve been able to be out and about in the world without the cage on (like this very moment), sometimes I forget that I’m not wearing the cage; I’m surprised when I go to use the restroom and my uncaged cock springs out of my underwear… “Oh yeah, I forgot!” ๐Ÿ™‚

So, yes, I fully enjoy the fact that my cock is locked up and completely at the mercy of My Lady. However, I must admit that I also enjoy the times where I’m allowed to “roam free” as it were. ML has been letting me out quite often during the past week, getting her “fill” of my cock (pun intended) whenever she can. And it’s really hitting me just how much I enjoy having a big cock.

No, this isn’t just a “I’m packing some major dick meat” brag post in disguise. But it’s true – I love having a large penis. And the fact that I don’t get to see it fully hard very often, I find myself appreciating it more. I stepped out of the shower today, and as I toweled off I looked down at my semi-hardness and thought, Damn.

I’ve never “damn”ed myself before! WTF???? But yeah, I really liked how my cock looked. Thankfully, ML shares this opinion. ๐Ÿ™‚

Since the other night when I got a little twinge of disappointment when cagedmonkey lost his erection, I’ve had some “I’m not good enough” stuff going on. I could feel the depression happening… losing my confidence, my self esteem and especially my horny. Hubby tried to arouse me a few times and I did start to feel a bit horny but it easily faded when he wasn’t around or was sleeping. I think that was another thing feeding into my depression, it always takes hubby a day or so to readjust after being off work so he sleeps quite a bit extra and our nightly connection isn’t what it normally is.

Then today pushed me further down into the hole of “I suck-ness” when I had to endure the terrible emotional battery I did from my 9yr old daughter. In case you don’t know, our daughter is on the Autism Spectrum and has some other medical issues so we homeschool her. I’m not going to get into it all but it hurt me to the core. I hid in the kitchen and cried because I felt like the worst parent, I felt like (feel like) I’m failing her, like maybe she deserves a better mom.

So as you can imagine this has all been taking away from the attention I usually give to cagedmonkey. So, yes, I feel like I’m failing as a keyholder and wife too. He’s not getting nearly the amount or quality of attention he wants or is used to. I need this depression to go away, I hate having feelings come over me like “maybe I should just give him the key and say forget it because I can’t give him what he wants right now.” I don’t really want that. I want to be fixed emotionally so that my dominant, confident, teasing horny comes back.

I did love the great pussy eating I got before hubby left for work tonight as well as the big long cum. I just wish I didn’t feel like I was on an emotional roller coaster.

It seemed like a good idea. Ok, maybe not a GOOD idea, but definitely and interesting one.

My Lady and I were looking forward to spending the night together, as she has had a craving to give me an intense teasing and I have been craving any and all attention she will give me. But before the festivities began, I need to give myself a little grooming. After I finished, ML looked at me sitting there and instructed me to stroke myself.

It felt so nice to play with my cock, and I got turned on very quickly. It wasn’t long before I was squirming on the edge of orgasm. Then ML had what seemed like a fun idea at the time, something we had talked about before and we were eager to try:

“Why don’t you lube your cock up with some of that Orajel to get yourself numb so I can use that cock?”

(For those who don’t know – and I’m not sure how you wouldn’t know, but just in case – Orajel is a numbing gel used to block the pain of a toothache)

Sounds fun in theory – ML gets to ride my cock and use it in any way she desires, while I’m stuck with a numb cock unable to feel any pleasure. So I grabbed a glove and began to apply the Orajel to the shaft of my cock. After a few minutes of rubbing in the gel, I took a moment to wash it off before ML had her way with me – neither of us wanted her to have a numb pussy!

I decided to be on top in order to test the effectiveness of the Orajel. It only took a few strokes for me to realize that it was working… but only a few strokes more to find out it wasn’t working as well as we’d hoped. I was still on the edge of orgasm within moments. In order to properly please My Lady, I withdrew and licked her pussy to a couple of nice orgasms… after which I noticed my tongue and lips were a little tingly. I guess I didn’t wash off all of the gel!

So ML and I headed to the bedroom for some more fun. She cuffed my wrists to the bed and reached down to play with my cock… my only slightly semi-hard cock.

Huh?

She was rubbing my cock, tickling and teasing it with her fingertips, and it felt great… but I wasn’t getting hard. WTF? I’m not sure if it was the Orajel, or the result the exhaustion of a very long day of lugging packed boxes around, or a combination of the two… but it just wasn’t happening.

Thankfully, ML doesn’t take it personally anymore when that happens (as rare as it does). But I’m pretty sure we won’t be trying out any “numbing agents” from now on. If My Lady wants a good hard fuck while I’m being denied, we always have the strapon and “Adam” to give her when she needs.

After cagedmonkey’s naughtiness the other night, he’s was put back in the Jail Bird. I did leave him unlocked that night for a good 24 hours or so. I had thought about locking him directly back up but I noticed some redness on the underside of his shaft and decided he needed a break from the cage. That also gave me time to use the hell out of him hehe.

As for the punishment for cumming without permission… “punishment” means different things to different people. So there is no one size fits all punishment for this type of thing. I’ve never had to actually punish cagedmonkey but rather I’ve only disciplined him with spanking, etc. When we made up our agreement we added a section for punishment/discipline and what things would be effective in what situations.

So let me clarify that this is definitely a punishable offense and not something that simply requires a “correction.” It may seem complicated but one is more of a cute “oh you naughty boy” thing, closer to funishment rather than punishment. Punishment is meant to to be something undesirable and unpleasant to the person who is being punished. For cagedmonkey, this needs to be the removal or denial of something pleasant or desirable.ย So cagedmonkey loves his video games and he also loves pleasing me, making me cum, etc. Any of these things being taken away would be punishment for him.

I will say I’m not completely devastated by his cumming without permission… because, to be honest, it felt so good and I loved that I had him so extremely worked up that his primal need took over. However, I would be utterly devastated if he were to cheat and cum hiding in a corner somewhere. The punishment for that is not playing… I hand him back the keys and when he can prove to me that he can be a good boy, then it might be time to play. This meant I really had to think about what punishment fit the crime, so to speak.

I decided since cagedmonkey came without permission that I would deny him MY orgasm. I figured if he had so much enjoyment out of his own then his punishment should be not getting to enjoy giving me any. So he got three days of not pleasing me, knowing that I had gone upstairs to make myself cum and he didn’t get to hear me moan, didn’t get to feel my pussy moisten, didn’t get to feel it tighten, didn’t get to taste my wonderful, yummy cum that he loves so much. Denied pleasuring the woman he loves and committed to serving and pleasing. You all know that with me being in control of when he cums, he has taken to getting his pleasure from pleasing me and giving me orgasms and servicing me sexually. Let me tell you by the second day he was already complaining about how he missed my pussy and tasting it. Awww, poor baby! ๐Ÿ™‚

I have enjoyed myself since Thursday night, I allowed his face to be buried back in my pussy, making me cum all over his face. We also got very intimate and romantic and did make love. Sometimes the slow, deliberate strokes with eye contact can really push the emotions. I really do love him being denied and extremely horny for me. I love that he wears my little steel cage on his cock because I want him to.

Finally after a very long week of punishment, extra hours at work and not getting much time to do the sexy sexes, cagedmonkey is home for the weekend. We had a chat in text last night about how I’m in the mood to use him as my sex toy. How I want to use whatever part of him, whenever I want for my pleasure. Wanna know the best part? He’s totally in the mood to be used for my pleasure! Hehe I have loved, over the past year, how our sexual moods have been in sync. When ever I’m feeling a certain way or he’s feeling a certain way we have always been in the same mood for that particular sexual thing. It’s so awesome!! ๐Ÿ™‚

I’m so sure there will be plenty of things to write about this weekend. Since he got home from work this morning, I’ve already woken him up a few times to get my pleasure in. Even though we will be packing and going through the house stuff, doesn’t mean I won’t call him to the bedroom or bathroom for a private moment of pussy licking and making me cum. ๐Ÿ™‚ I may even send him there before me to get his unlocked cock good and hard and ready to dip in my tight pussy whenever I want. So much possibility for so much yummy play, all. day. long. ๐Ÿ™‚ however I have no plans to make him cum until at least January 18th.

Apologies for the lack of posts recently… don’t worry, I didn’t cum and forget about my posting duties! My Lady and I have been busy working on going through our stuff, tossing and packing appropriately, as we are scheduled to move at the end of the month. ML actually has a post she’s writing started as a draft… stay tuned. ๐Ÿ˜‰ It’s a hectic time, but that doesn’t mean we haven’t had time to get naughty with each other.

So I’m currently locked up once again, with the cum I unloaded into ML’s ass representing my last orgasm of this year. Although, that’s what ML said back in July… that’s why we call it “maybe day” folks. Something tells me that she’s serious this time, though… she may even push me longer, I don’t know for sure.

After our last go around with 24/7 lockup, ML has decided that we most likely won’t be doing that very often – she loves playing with her toy too much! Maybe in the future when it feels right it’ll happen again, but she prefers locking and unlocking me on a whim. This is GREAT news for me! I was going crazy being trapped in that cage so long! I very much prefer nights like tonight, when ML unlocked me and we made love to each other. I worked hard to stay away from the edge, and since I came three days ago I was able to do a pretty good job for her. My Lady didn’t have an orgasm, although she said she really wasn’t liking for one and she just wanted to enjoy the feeling of me inside her. She did cum when I licked her pussy while I was on my knees before I left for work, though.

Ahhhhh, it’s so nice to be back to being used again! ๐Ÿ™‚

I am EXTREMELY happy to report that last night My Lady unlocked me for the first time in over two weeks. It was SO WONDERFUL to have my cock free of the steel cage again.

It felt even better when she allowed me to cum. ๐Ÿ™‚

Okay, technically it wasn’t “allowed,” but I’ll get to that in a bit.

My Lady and I were spending some kiss and cuddle time together, and she began rubbing my cock though the cage, making me bulge through the bars. She asked me if I really wanted out, and of course I said yes. Then she told me to close my eyes. I obeyed, and I felt her messing around down there. It had crossed my mind that maybe she was… no, she couldn’t possibly be… was she?

She told me to open my eyes, and I saw the security screw in the palm of her hand. My Lady had unlocked the cage!

A moment later, ML was pulling the cage off of my shaft, and my cock sprang to life, reaching it’s full length for the first time in 19 days. I would have been content with just that, but ML had much more in mind for me.

ML stroked me and teased me for a few moments before she asked me, “do you want to fuck me?” “Of course!” I responded immediately. She pulled me on top of her, directing me to enter her tight wet pussy. “Are you ready?” she asked me. Before I could answer, she pulled me deep into her in one stroke.

I almost came immediately, and it took a lot of effort to hold back when she started to shake and tremble simply from feeling my cock inside her. She kept grabbing at my hips and pulling me closer; I could tell she wanted all of me inside her.

Then I did something I’m not extremely proud of, but would totally do again in the exact same situation – I asked her if she would be really angry if I just came inside her. Her answer, interrupted by passionate moans, was, “I’m not sure, I don’t know how to answer that.” So I told her, “ok, I’m going to fuck you and cum right now, and you can punish me any way you want, because I can’t NOT do it!”

And that’s what I did. I grabbed her ass and shoved my cock deep into her pussy and filled her pussy with over a month’s load of cum. It was an incredible orgasm, and ML joined me as we both moaned, groaned, and trembled with orgasmic bliss. There is no other word to explain it but “amazing.”

After that first orgasm, ML demanded a good, deep, hard, doggy style fuck, and I was more than happy to oblige. I pounded her pussy from behind, those wonderful smacks of my hips hitting her ass reverberated through the room. It wasn’t long until ML was cumming on my cock once again, pushing back against me, desperate to pull my cock deeper inside her. And all of a sudden, I was cumming again, only minutes between orgasms after enduring a wait of 49 days.

It was a wonderful night, and I’m still sort of recovering from it. It still doesn’t seem real that it happened, nor does it seem real that ML took my cock into her ass and let me cum in her ass during the night. I know it did happen though, because this morning ML told me she’d have to think about how she’s going to punish me for being a bad boy. I did tell her she could do anything she wanted…  ๐Ÿ™‚